Random Rants #3

Flashbacks is the most painful part of memories. It brings you back to the worst kind of memory you have, and in that instant, your day is ruined. It's funny how someone can ruin your day huh? or even something so minor can make you wanna go home and crawl into your sheets again. However, I somehow thrive on flashbacks. Without them, I feel so lost yet without them I feel free. It's a horrible paradox. I despise flashbacks yet having them helps me to never forget. To never trust anyone. To never care. Because, you see, you mean nothing to people who could mean something to you. And when you realize that, it would the most devestating thing you could have endured. And the pain, you gotta keep it in you. As a lesson. And in the future, when you have flashbacks, you'll remember the pain. Oh, yes. You'll REMEMBER IT VERY WELL.  Flashback's a bitch but it is essential in my life because i may be able to forgive but I'll never forget. 

I'll never forget who was there for me when I needed them most. 

Yeah.